APRIL 2018

And in the blink of an eye, we are halfway through April 2018.

The past month has been pretty hectic, over work, studies and family.

Some things that took place; 

1) Elijah

A new member arrived into the Quah family!

Hilda delivered a healthy baby late in March, and the arrival of this baby has brought so much joy to the family.

This coming weekend will be his 1st month, how fast!

2) Books & books

Almost every night now i have a book in my hands, and reading has now occupied most of my leisure time.

Hans even got a kindle for me! Now i can bring my 'books' around easily.

3) Travel plans

Slightly more than one more week to Bangkok with Hans, and less than a month to Hong Kong with the girls!

After which 2 more Australia trips for me till the end of the year (making full use of the Visa, yes.)

4) Punggol House

There's some progression to the house now, like finally.

Our house is now up till the 2nd storey, and hopefully by end of this year we can see our unit up!

Counting down to 3 more years till keys collection.

That's about all for now.

Next time i check in here i'll be updating on my trips!

WEEK 46 OF 52

A quiet and busy month, where everyone is so stressed out at work due to peak, trying to meet deadlines, and here i am preparing for my exams which is exactly one month away from today.

Caught a few movies over the past weeks - Thor & ABTM 4, went to my favourite cafe twice with different groups of people, and the rest were trying-to-catch-up-with-my-studies time.

"Maybe its time i change a job"

"Have i made the wrong choice studying"

"What am i doing with my life here"

These were the thoughts i've been having for the longest time ever.

What if i give up halfway, how will people around me take it, where should i head to next?

One step at a time - this should probably be the way to go?

Can i fast forward everything please.

NOVEMBER

It's gonna be a tough month ahead.

Through it all, i know we are able to do this.. 

Less than 2 months to end of the year, less than 2 months to Hokkaido.

Can't wait.

BIRTHDAY I: LASTRADA

Celebrated my 25th with H today at La Strada, Italian will never go wrong!

Thank you for the treat and everything, you're probably the best I could ever ask for.

And I am counting down to our trip in 4 days' time!

Every October H will suggest we go somewhere for a holiday, and the sole reason was that it is my birthday month.

To many, birthday could be "just another day", but for me, I choose to feel special, I choose to think that this is the day for me, and that it's the day I can bring everyone together.

Be it over a meal, a simple coffee talk, I know who are those who cared.

H is one of those people who knows how important birthday means to me, and he never fails to make me feel 'Today is just the day for you'.

And as I am typing these, the two most important boys are gaming in front of me.

8 more mins till 25, another year older, another year wiser.

& I know just how blessed I am.

HI THERE, OCTOBER

September was a pretty fast month.

Not much updates on this space for sometime now, but October will be a more fulfilling month, for sure.

And here are 2 of my favourites from September, captured with my new EOS M3!

Thank you Dad, Mum and dearest Bro for this on my 25th 💕

Look how 'squashed' Clover is haha, super adorable.
So much to look forward to in October, and this space will be livelier then!
I am ready for you.

TODDLER TYLER

Visited Wanyi & Tyler last weekend and it was so well spent!

He was so shy to begin with, hugging his mummy so tightly.

When he saw his favourite blue car rolling towards me, that was when he started opening himself.

Just look at those adorable eyes!

Before I went back, he even kissed me goodbye 😍

And just recently, I wonder what is it I really want.

Still seeking for that answer...

MOTHER'S DAY

Never a day I go without missing you,

never a day I go without seeing your bright cheerful smile.

Today, I miss you exceptionally much AhMa, your absence in our lives makes a great deal to everyone around.

Every year this day, you'll feel so happy to have everyone together under the same roof, you'll smile so brightly receiving the bouquet of carnations from us.

As I offered you your meal today, it occur to me that I'm still not used to not having you around.

No matter where you are, I hope you are doing well and no matter when is it, always know you're missed.

Happy Mother's Day, my greatest woman.

❤

GRANDPA

Grandpa was down with mild stroke just a few days ago.

Lucky for mum who noticed him while at work and admitted him to A&E within an hour the symptoms kicked in.

He was discharged yesterday after being admitted for 4 days.

And I am so amazed by his progression, day by day, we all could tell the improvement in him.

Thank you for being so strong Grandpa, 

for always hanging through the tough times and always reassuring us that you are okay, 

that we should all go home and rest and that you will be fine alone,

and always checking if we have had our meals.

You're always the pillar of us.

MONTH TWO

February was such a short yet fulfilling month.

Special occasions - V Day followed by H's birthday, had Hai Di Lao with his family (and i did my nails!), and Ikoi Japanese on another day.

Grandma's Anniversary - Yesterday was her official 1 year away from us, i still miss her like how i always do, and i miss snuggling beside her..

Studies - Class have started and i'm into my 3rd lesson now. Hm, so far still catching everything my lecturer says but i need time to digest. Yes time.

Crumb Bites - Slowly down a lot now, felt like i have a lot on my plate currently and it will take some time for me to get back on track.

Trips - Super excited to say that i have my air tickets booked till October! 3 trips to look forward to, and i'm so pumped up for everyone of them.

So that's for my short February, i'm so looking forward to what the rest of the months have for me. And having said that, i should start meeting up my friends. It's been a little too long.

VI

And these days, i kept thinking and wondering what is it i really want. Gradually, i got tired of myself, of the things around me, and loss interest in everything. I end up hurting the people around me, neglecting friends, stopped baking, wonder if it was the right choice i even started studying.

I'm even losing myself, and i'm not sure if i'm able to keep those around me.

Someone guide me please, i don't know where i'm headed to now.

#THOUGHTS

⏰: 9.30am

Came in office like every other morning and was uploading some of the photos taken over the weekends since there was some time to spare.

 As usual, there were photos on bakes, and others with the family.

There is this folder under my Google Drive that indicates "Family Birthdays", and the first photo that appeared was Grandma with her favourite D24 durian cake for her birthday back in 2014.

So many images ran through my mind at that instant and I felt like I could feel her with me, probably waiting for me to end work back at home, like how she usually does.

Still could not deal with her departure despite it being almost a year now.

People around may not be able to fully comprehend this feeling, but staying with her for years has allowed Grandma to form a significant part of me.

- I miss you so dearly, Grandma.

27.02.2016

The greatest woman in my life left us peacefully last week.

Tho we really couldn't bear to let you leave, but we know that you are doing better somewhere, while watching over all of us. 

It's been a tough journey for you, and this is a blessing in disguise.

During the time you were in pain, it hurt us to watch you suffer.

& now, it's painful for us to lose you but at least we know, you're not suffering anymore.

Please visit us often and let us dream of you, and watch over grandpa.

I really miss you, my dearest grandma.

SIMPLE THINGS;

it ain't the same no more

How time really flies is kinda scary at times.

There are so many things I wanna do but time just doesn't stop and wait. 

And so much things had happened recently that it really got me thinking at times.

Losing people around you are part and parcel of life I guess, they come in and they walk out, but life still goes on isn't it! 

Just cherish those who are still standing by your side for they are the ones who will walk down the road ahead with you.

True that its a waste how years of relationship will go down the drain but it definitely takes 2 hands to clap.

All the unhappiness were just between those who were involved and it doesn't mean that you are entitle to go round telling others and 'sharing your grieve' just because they're close to you and start all the nonsense on the virtual world where you guys just agree with one another and pretending that I can see no shit. 

Well I've learnt my lesson that its so stupid to do those things and I let my anger got the better of me but that will not happen twice. 

People say that I owe you your stuff still but I personally don't think so cos when there's no give from me, I'll expect no take from you.

Okay so everything ends here and I brood over it no more till then.

Miss Hans a lot and he's coming back tonight!! 

Gonna prepare for work soon and I hope this last day of the month will end of well at work <:

brunch on a lazy afternoon

Impromptu brunch with Hans @ Changi V.

Settled for Nyonya food and I really can't take the spiciness ;/

And we both look so lazy on a Saturday afternoon. 

Things aren't getting any better.
And I hate myself for that.
Sometimes, I feel that maybe giving each of us some time away would be better.
Just that I do not have the guts to say for I'm afraid that I'll regret.

'Even though you are a fair and balanced person, Libra, you tend to snap judgement based on superficial observations.' 

;/