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Off day yesterday and the family accompanied grandma for her drip before we head to Flower Dome, she loves flowers!

Though she's really weak now, i believe she can feel each and everyone's presence and warmth around her, 


Too many things have happened lately, this could be the toughest period of my life for the past 23 years.

Grandma had brain cancer relapse and doctor diagnosed she has 3 months left..
This came as a shocking news to each and every one of us.
And seeing how frail she's becoming as the days go by, we can only be by her side everyday, encourage her and accompany her.
I can never imagine life without her, and how will my grandpa be too.
The family is supporting her in every way we can.
For now, it's us she needs the most and i wish she can go through lesser pain.

My relationship has probably hit rock bottom too.
So much has happened, so much consideration needed.
Not too sure if everything will be fine but we'll work something out.
Time will lead us to where we're destined to be, time will tell it all.

Work hasn't been too nasty to me thus far and i'm glad i have supportive colleagues.
Probably other than some annoying clients who will disturb you in the midst of everyday.

& down to myself, sitting alone in front of my desk right now.
There was this point in time i felt i couldn't breathe, literally.
Everything is crumbling down to me all at once and tears accompanying me day in and out.
I'm thankful for those who stood by, your listening ears has lighten my load a lil.
But a problem is still a problem and we have to solve.
Clueless where all these will lead me but i will handle it sometime, somehow.

~

DECEMBER

Just some swiss roll mum & i did over the week.

Log cake orders on Crumb Bites are coming in fast and i'm really glad to be this busy. 

It's really not easy to start this business and hopefully i'm able to sustain it!!

Anyway, it's already towards the end of the month and so much as happened this year.

Changes and adaptation.

Upcoming days might not be easy but i will get through it i'm sure, somehow.

And for now, i cannot wait for 2 things:

- Bkk trip with the family

- Hans's short return in Jan

December, please be a good month to close the year

(:

NOVEMBER BIG BABIES

 Over the weekends we celebrate bro's birthday with daddy's side at Cafe Brio's buffet.

Guess this is what he really wants, quality time with the family rather than an extravagant party.

All was good, but a pity Hans and Belle wasn't there,

& today's the greatest grandpa birthday!

Assisted mummy with this mahjong durain cake for him and look at his wide and heartwarming smile there,

So happy that he is happy and we really have to cherish them while they are still around.

Rough start to the week but all is good now, and hopefully this will continue too.

Being someone who doesn't open up to others when i hit rock bottom, not knowing who to confide in, i'm glad i always have my brother with me.

And for now, just be contented with what i have.

WEEK 46

Birthday week both in office at home.

Celebrated our office’s last birthday baby’s birthday, tho the surprise wasn’t a big one, all of us still hope she enjoyed herself!

And and, yesterday was the brother’s big day! Big 21^st <:

He decided not to have a big party so all of us tried our ways to make it such that he still has a decent 21^st, somewhat a party setup.

Regardless, glad he enjoyed and here’s to a step into adulthood for him!

And, here's a peak into the cake which I have done for him:

:D

MANILA '15

My cosy lil apartment ^^

So i finally visited Hans at Manila over the long weekends! 

Words couldn't describe how excited i was when waiting for my flight.

Too much things to say, but all the photos through these 6 days shall summarise it all. 

Our cosy lil apartment was definitely a love and it was so dreamy to me ~~

(I loved it for sure)

But i probably visited a tad too long that Hans's work was piling up and i felt so bad as i am typing this now.

One huge takeaway from my visit this time was it showed us both how distance can truly affect our relationship, which none of us saw it coming.

To put it in a cooler manner, we're glad we realise the issue early.

To put it in layman term, shit is getting real.

How we always thought we were handling this LDR well did not turn out the way when we first met for sure, which was, hmm pretty upsetting for us two.

Just glad we were both able to sort out the differences and accept it (well it's taking abit of time for me), face it and deal with it.

Regardless, thank you for the reassurance time and again, though you weren't even sure at first but we'll have faith <;

I'll see you again January and hopefully this time around, we are able to find 'it' back.

~

OCT ~ NOV

It was definitely an overwhelming week for me, with 3 big parties/celebration.

Nonetheless, I'm so glad I (Crumb Bites) could be part of these events!

 Momsie's birthday on Friday, and I made her a Coffee walnut cake.

Wasn't sure at all how this will turn out with the family but the response was good I was so super touched!

Happy to see mom enjoying herself on this very big day of hers and that everyone, well almost all, could be here with her.

 & yesterday was Clement's birthday surprise!

So everyone knew about this whole plan except for the birthday boy, and his expression when he entered the chalet was priceless <:

Red velvet 9" cake for the birthday boy!

And today was the full month celebration of Wanyi's baby boy, Tyler!

He was so adorable and fun to be with, and I'm so happy to see our new mummy here doing all fine.

It definitely put my mind at ease seeing them 2 handling everything well.

Proud of you babe!

On a side note, I've had for them a tier of red velvet and a tier of oreo cupcakes ~

So super glad everything ended on a positive note, and it's the start of November already!

Now it's down to 5 more days till i fly over and hug Hans hehe.

Can't wait to reunite with him again, it's probably been too long we've been apart but i guess we really really learn a lot from his trip this time round, and i'm glad he made this right choice.

(:

SATAY BY THE BAY X BAKES

And so over the weekends, friends came over to my place so mum and i baked some food for them.

Was a tiring but fun fulfilling weekend tho.

Oh and I visited Satay by the bay with my family!

The place pretty much look like it’s still renovating and the food was hmm, normal. Lagoon’s much better!

But glad I managed to spend quality time with the people around me.

For now, it’s 9 more days to visiting Hans!

My return flight got cancelled and was rescheduled to a day later (which means one more day with Hans!), I think even Cebu Pacific knows I wanna stay longer hehe ~

WEEK 41

 Office party on Friday for our moving in which actually happened about a month ago.

With a lil contribution from everyone, the food was (Y)

 & fruit basket today was a success!

This will be up on this upcoming Tuesday launch at Crumb Bites <:

Stay tuned ~

Oh and Hans's mummy send me this over the weekends!

How i miss him and i definitely can't wait for less than 3 weeks laterrrrr~

ARTISAN BOULANGERIE CO.

Met the girls for brunch today, thank you for the mini celebration :>

It was always nice catching up with them, regardless how long we never met, things just stays the same, just like the old days. 

Thank you for making my Sunday, as well as you girls'!

Counting down to less than a month (actually 25 more days!) to seeing Hans again!

Though we may have disagreements every now and then, and with you being overseas it made us harder to come to an agreement, but I just hope things will improve from here..

Well, we fall, and we learn.

Just gotta keep moving;

TWENTY THIRD

So the office bunch planned a surprise on my birthday, which really left me surprised in tears (of joy).

Can't ever thank them enough especially my v trusty partner in office ;>

Back at home, mum baked this very special Lychee Martini cake for me! How pretty it is ~

& so the deal was, Hans planned a surprise for me alongside w my brother which left me touched to tears again. 

Thank you for knowing what I love and even go that extra mile to bring it to me thou you can't be physically here w me. 

This 23rd is a special one which I'll probably not forget in a long while, and I realize who are those that really cared. 

Thank you guys for sticking around w me, I'm blessed ❤️